One of the things I recognize about myself is that I have an easy time presenting God’s truth and a hard time presenting God’s grace. I get frustrated easily and angry. Of course, God’s truth and God’s grace are inseparable. You can’t have one without the other. So, in essence, I still don’t fully understand either.
I struggle to live up to Ephesians 4:29 – “Let no unwholesome talk come out of your mouth, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that is may give grace to those who hear.”
I struggle to live up to Hebrews 5:2 – “He can deal gently with the ignorant and wayward, since he himself is beset with weakness.”
I also struggle with whether or not I should write publicly because of my weakness. I recognize that a lot of what I write, I will look back on and see that I could have been more gentle, I could have been more loving. I wielded God’s Word like a sword when I should have used it like oil and wine to bind up a wound. However, I also know that God has put me here now to proclaim the glory of His Kingdom, and that sanctification may not be complete on this side of Heaven, and that God uses imperfect people to do His will so that it will be well known that the glory is completely due to Him.
I hope that, as I continue to write and share what I’m learning about the eternal and ancient God we trust, you can see His promise fulfilled in me, that I would continue to grow in love and gentleness.
“For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 1:6)